Time With My "Home Girls"

Things have been pretty much the same.  I continue to be on a "holding pattern" waiting to see what the news from my Muga Scan (coming this week on Wednesday) will say about my heart function and if it did indeed manage to go back to normal.  My hopes are that it did and all else can proceed from here.  If it does not, then I am sure my oncologist will have a plan for me.  I'm just concerned that the plan will entail more waiting or a whole new pathway.

My legs are pretty good.  Not much pain at all although they are still not my strong dependable legs.  I still have the neuropathy in my fingers and toes.  (I went out the other night with friends and if I didn't look at the wine glass in front of me, my fingers weren't quite sure of where it was.  Even though I nursed one glass all night, I am sure if someone was watching me, they must have thought I was drunk when I would miss my glass or almost tip it over!)  All in all, it has been a good resting period.  People keep telling me how good I look.  I am not sure if they expected me to look devastatingly sick and wasted...or if they are in shock that people with cancer can actually look OK even in the midst of it.  A good wig and knowledge of make up really helps.  However, people do then think that you feel as good as you look!  That's the pitfall!

This weekend will be an even better time during this "divine intervention period".  I am going with my "home girls" from my church to a retreat weekend with lots of talk, prayer, crafts, massages, walks, reading, time to be alone and time to be with others, etc.  I am looking forward to it and especially with the friends that will be there.  It is a good way to get through this weekend before I learn the news of next week.

Just heard today that another person from our church (who moved away a year ago) was just diagnosed with breast cancer herself.  I don't know whether it is that I am more conscious of hearing this...or if there is just more of it, but it is just overwhelming how many of us are out there.  I have already made plans to talk with her on Monday and I know she will be glad to talk it out with someone as I was when I began.

So that's all for now.  I am going to finish packing and I will write next after the Muga Scan.  In the meantime, if you would pray for a good result, it would be appreciated.